False Facade

Just dun want to come to work after like 1 month of nothingness. Dragged maself to the point that I shun away from external despositions. I put up a front, not of my own, not one of my innerself but one with a false facade. Just had to be there for the high spirited souls that came to scower for that ounce of liberation. My own liberation? I left that far far away. Am I able to bring myself where my head was once high? I will not die?