Stronger

Its been a week and we are taking it slowly and at a slow pace.. its not easy building something from scratch again after what has happened.. however indeed we have grown stronger,.. in fact even more stronger than these 8 years combined... I am definately sure without a doubt that she is the one for me. I also learnt a valuable lesson from what had happened. To cherish her always. She gave me another chance... Thats what i need to make up for all the badlight that I've given her, the tears that she shed for me, the sleepless nights that she went through; worriying sick about me... unhappiness i caused, and the unaccepted decissions I made that she had to endure. Yes, there were goodtimes and goodlight but this time we are goin to shine, overcome all obstacles, whatever the future might bring we are gonna go through it together. Coz We are stronger than ever before...

We are stronger...

Es Cafe @ Bussuroh Street

After the PA practice...

Rienaz, IzOneD, KT, Khairul, Uddin, Yasmine & Ricky decided to have a sheesha session... we wanted to go to Al Majlis but we wanted to find a new spot..

So we decided to go to Uddin's workplace Es Cafe, @ BUssuroh street #72.. we decided to check it out.. great ambience... good food and great service

We had pasta, fries, wedges, assorment of drinks and pizza...
and of course Sheesha!!! I think we ordered strawberry mint. Damn nice... although I preferred the usual Applemint.
Uddin suggested that his co-worker..do a sketch for us... we agreed...ended up he did all of our faces in 1 artwork... damn gudlah!! Maybe we will chill again...there...

Went back at 3am++ ...



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Hush My Love......

11th July 2005

Our 8th years together... today it seems...
Began very disasterous...

Am on MC today.... coz was having diorheoa..must be ate that "stupid burger" at Turf City the day before...
Apparently Rienaz is also on MC... got to get an Xray on her foot.
The truth is out... she knows... kana scolded left right centre... I know I was wrong.. feel very resentfull...regrets... stoopid... feel like i should just jump... but thinking that I would not loose the fight... will not succumb to failure and defeat...
Must win her over yet once again.... and for the last time... I want to see her smile once again... When you hurt someone... you must win him/her back no matter what... forgiveness will come eventually no matter the time taken... Thats what I hope,,.. after all that we have gone through.... she is worth every breath and effort.. every ounce of toil and turmoil dedicated to win her back...

Aint gonna be easy... but I'll do it no matter what....
8 years ago... I promised her I will marry her one day.... Im still holding on to that 8 years after... I dont see why i should stop holding on to that even after forever.

Its gonna be like 8 yrs ago..now... just like courtship... even like before we "steadied"... starting back from scratch... from ground zero ..where buying flowers, making cards.. and writing surprise "I Love You!"-notes in her lecture notes/lecturepads... were a norm...years back... guess i have to be that hopeless romantic I once was Aeons ago.. IzOneD is back...!!!


"Hush my love...
Hold me Close Hold me forever..
I believe that you and me ..will love each other endlessly..
Let the seasons pass us by..
Let the tears run down and dry..
I believe that God made me..
My Love...
My Destiny...."

The return....

Told her everything that happened...
I felt that she needed to know all about me... what had happened... what is goin thru my mind all these while... what was goin on....


...... she gave me back my ring......
...... its with me now once again..I am keeping that ring....
...... it will never again be circling round her finger...
...... the ring/ our ring.... is a lesson learnt...
...... the ring/ our ring.... a reminder to me now and forever....

Dollar to dime

Was reading my friend's blogs...
Was taken aback by my friend Lorynn's BloG...
This is what she wrote...

"A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still, the hands were up in the air. "Well," he replied, "What if I do this?"? And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe, crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air. "My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value in the eyes of those who love you. "- Life Snapshots- (5thJuly05)


well what im goin thru now is like I'm the dollar bill ..maybe I devalued myself in currency to just a dime... but there is a value nevertheless... im still an afterthought....

---->>>>> just shoot me dead --->>> i rather be just an afterthought--]]]]]

AfterThought

Hi Again...I am just an afterthought...
It just had to be Friday ... well..well.. the start of a longweekend.. I see the light at the end of the tunnel...

School had a fund-raising thingie today... they took up like 2 periods of reccess and but I didnt go down... dun feel like to... stayed in ma cave... did some magic on my photoshop...

Afternoon had to attend a workshop in AVA about Classroom Management... bummer...2nd session is next week...another bummer..

Im just an afterthought... not now, not just now.. but later... an afterthought..